Some people say first person present is the most powerful, immediate form of fiction, but I can't write that way without feeling like I'm penning a detective novel.
"I pull the first drawer open and take out a bottle. Pull the second drawer open and take out my gun. I belt the whisky down fast and it kicks hard. But I know the snubnose kicks even harder, and I need to fortify myself for the work ahead. Just thinking about it makes my hands shake, so I take another shot. It won't be the last tonight."